The idea of moving is hard for me right now. Not sure why. From the first day that Brian and I ventured out to Colorado, we always longed to go back home.. for many different reasons. After 7 years, the decision has been made for us; we are moving back to Atlanta. Just in the past year or so, I have started to change my mind about moving.. not because I did not want to be near all of our family that is there (miss them all so much), but because I felt like we would be moving backward if we went. Taking a step back. Things have been good since we moved here… our jobs (just amazing in that area), buying our first house, having two seriously cute children, having fun all the time… we love it here, love the city, love the weather, love the people, love how everything is so close. Such a nice, relaxed place to raise our kids. Love how close I am to my sister.
Well, I was thinking about the whole <taking a step back> thing and this is what I realized.
Switchbacks.
Ugh, I hate switchbacks.. hiking, biking, whatever. You go around and around, never seeming to make it to the top. Easier than going straight up, yes. But longer, and the top seems so out of reach. I whine my way up them, knowing, however, that if there were a straight shot, there would be no way I would make it.
Moving back to Atlanta is just a switchback. A step up. A small one, but a definite step up on the way to what we are striving towards. We will be able to have the kids in good schools. We will finally get out of this cracker-box house we live in and have one that we are proud of. We can live in a neighborhood where the little boys next door aren’t spray painting our garage. We can have cousin night with all the kids. Brian can work from home; spend more time with Aislin and Declan instead of taking the long drive to Boulder every day. We can have babysitters all the time (YOU know who you are!!). We can see family more often.
I will miss my sister. I will miss my friends. I will miss everything about Colorado. But, we have to continue on up this hill, up our path. Not quite ready yet, but I will be soon. Just in time, I guess.